I haven’t been one to attend church on a regular basis. I can probably count on just my two hands how many times I have stepped foot into a church. But one thing that is true is that I have always found myself in a church when things in my life have been difficult.
When I went to basic training and I missed my friends and family, I went to church each weekend and it helped tremendously. When my mother passed away, I found myself back in church during the time I was home on Leave and also for several weeks after returning to my military base. Growing up, I went to church a few times with my mom. A few days ago, after struggling to get over my fitness test failure, I visited the Chaplain and spent about an hour with him, and again I was extremely relieved after the visit and felt a ton better.
But for some reason I have never been able to maintain the self-discipline needed to keep going every single week, or even just regularly. I can’t blame it on anything except pure laziness, and that’s my fault entirely.
I plan to visit a Methodist church here in Valdosta either starting tomorrow or next weekend. I can’t remember clearly, but I believe my mother attended Methodist services. I may be mistaken, but I’m going to give it a try anyway as a starting point to figure out where I best belong.
I’ve also been watching Dr. Greg’s YouNow broadcasts on a nightly basis for about the last two weeks. Dr. Greg is an ordained UMC minister in Texas and spends his broadcasts answering questions people have about religion, church, metaphysics, and other topics. Rather than preaching, he simply engages in conversation with his audience and he has answered many of my own questions which I am deeply thankful for.
My hope is that enough time has passed and that I have matured enough to where I can maintain the discipline needed to make it to church regularly. Can I make any promises? No. But if I can at least start going more often, I’ll be happy and I can continue to build from there.