48. Meg Myers – Sorry

My heart is wasted and cut up like a drug
And your tears – they taste like vinegar and blood
And these conversations choke us ’til we’re numb
No matter what we’re saying, it never seems enough

So take me to the start
Take me to that kiss
‘Cause I gotta know, baby, what I’ll forget
Sorry that I lost our love, without a reason why
Sorry that I lost our love, it really hurts sometimes
And I’m sorry, sorry
What do you want, what do you want me to say?
Sorry that I lost our love
Until the end of time

My voice is twisted, guilty goes the tongue
Your eyes are faded, that used to turn me on
And our skin is dangerous, villains when we touch
No matter what we’re feeling, it never feels enough

So take me to the start
Take me to that kiss
‘Cause I gotta know, baby, what I’ll forget
Sorry that I lost our love, you’ve got a reason why
Sorry that I lost our love, it really hurts sometimes
And I’m sorry, sorry
What do you want, what do you want me to say
Sorry that I lost our love
Until the end of time

Sorry that I lost our love, without a reason why
Sorry that I lost our love, it really hurts sometimes
And I’m sorry, sorry
What do you want, what do you want from me?
So, sorry, sorry
What do you want, what do you want me to say?
Sorry that I lost our love, without a reason why
Sorry that I lost our love, it really hurts sometimes
And I’m sorry, sorry
What do you want, what do you want me to say?
Sorry that I lost our love
Until the end of time

47. Childhood Reflections

I used to do a lot of fishing while I was growing up. My dad and I used to go out in the evenings during the summer and fish for Bass and other fish along the Kennebec River. We had a few favorite spots together, but my personal favorite spot was an area just below the Shawmut Dam. This area in particular had some rock formations that made it easy to get up close to the dam and catch some nice Brook Trout, and the calm, shallow pools of water between the rocks made for prime real estate to catch Bass. We would typically get out there around 6:00 PM and stay for a couple of hours. We had pretty good luck most of the time.

Another place I used to go was on Water Street in Fairfield behind the Riverside Assembly Church. There were some nice, steep banks behind the church that made for good privacy, and a wooden dock that went out into the river several dozen feet. I’ve caught some good Bass there in my time.

A little ways down the road, maybe 10 minutes walking and one minute by car, the Fairfield boat launch also made a great place to do some fishing. The water always seems to be calmer and there was a nice bank to sit on and have some snacks while waiting for the fish to bite.

A couple of towns over in Winslow, there used to be an auto parts store on Bay Street. I can’t remember exactly what it was called, but I think it was Bragg’s. One particular evening, my dad, my uncle and I decided to go here because there was a good fishing spot behind the business along the Kennebec. While waking down the embankment, there was a lot of trash and auto parts that had been discarded, making it hard to step over them to get to the water. At one point, my dad said, “there’s everything but the kitchen sink out here!” At that moment, I quite literally stepped into an old kitchen sink in which a family of wasps had inconveniently made their home. I wasn’t very lucky this evening, because one of the wasps stung me in my ankle and it hurt like hell.

As if this wasn’t bad enough, we decided to go back to this same spot several years later, and it didn’t end up much better for us. After catching a nice large mouth bass (still my only large mouth catch ever), my dad decided to be nice and help me take it off the hook. I’ll end the story here by saying that the Bass got the last laugh, and our evening ended with a trip to the hospital where the doctor was nice enough to remove the barbed hook from my dad’s finger.

45. The Happy Wanderer | WordPress Daily Prompt

Today’s WordPress Daily Prompt asked:

What’s your travel style? Are you itinerary and schedule driven, needing to have every step mapped out in advance or are you content to arrive without a plan and let happenstance be your guide?


I am very much an itinerary-driven traveler. As an example, here is the itinerary I made before my recent trip to the Orlando area:

Itinerary

As you can tell, I leave out no detail. On trips where I will be seeing multiple people over many days, I usually bring my laptop or iPad with me so I can reference my calendar to see who I’m meeting, when I’m meeting them, where we’re meeting, etc.

It’s a system that has worked well for me over the years, and in large part I have the military to thank for my organizational skills and promptness.

44. I’m Missing You Every Day – An original lyric and other bittersweet things

I’ve always been a person who has a hard time of letting go of things that happened in the past. Whether it be high school, previous jobs, old friends, trips, or any number of other past experiences, I find myself reminiscing a lot and wishing I could relive the good times and re-do the bad ones. They say time cures all heartaches, but that isn’t necessarily the case. There are things that have happened well over a decade ago that I still relive on a regular basis and that are just as fresh in my memory as if they had happened yesterday. I don’t know what the word or words to describe those feelings are, at least not right now as I try to think of one.

I discovered some things about myself during my time at Disney that I had always suspected, but never could confirm. One of those being that I will eventually make a damn good Dad whenever I decide it’s the right time to settle down and have children. Honestly, that’s what has been on my mind over these last several days. I really enjoyed being the protector, the babysitter, and the person who could find a quick solution to whatever the problem was at that moment. For a full week I was able to act like I was six years old again and have that bond with someone who looked up to me. It was a wonderful feeling that I hope I get to experience again real soon.

Regardless, tomorrow morning I head back to work after this 12-day vacation. It’s a bittersweet time because I really did enjoy myself and certain parts of my trip to Disney, my time in Orlando and Kissimmee, and being able to catch up on things here at home. It’s going to be hard for me to get back on track at work and be able to put 100% of my focus and efforts into my tasks there. Whenever I visit friends and family in Maine or go to California for my annual trips, I don’t feel the way that I do right now after returning from this one. I think a big reason for that is because I generally always feel like everything is complete and there are no loose ends left before leaving to come back home. This time, however, I feel that there is still unfinished business with everything I have mentioned thus far. I feel like I still want to be down in Florida with my friend and her daughter, working things out to a point where I can come back satisfied with the end result.

But I know it can’t happen. The trip is over. That time has passed. And I wish things were different.


I’m Missing You Every Day

Original – August 24, 2014

Now that you’re gone, do you miss me yet?
‘Cause all I think about is you, though I try to forget
You bring the light when I’m veiled in dark
And I try to take it back, but you still own my heart

Baby, you can take this pain away
Oh, I’m missing you every day
These bloodshot eyes
With hints of tears
In them captured what we’ve built through the years

Without you…
The void, it gets bigger
The light, it gets dimmer
The darkness gets thicker
And damn it, I can’t figure it out

I am the rain on my own parade
Oh, I’m missing you every day

I’m shouting my words for all to hear
Hoping someone listens; takes away my fears
So give me a sign, is anyone there?
Is that you? Are you out there somewhere?

Baby, you can take this pain away
Oh, I’m missing you every day
These bloodshot eyes
With hints of tears
In them captured what we’ve built through the years

Without you…
The void, it gets bigger
The light, it gets dimmer
The darkness gets thicker
And damn it, I can’t figure it out

I am the rain on my own parade
Oh, I’m missing you every day

— Instrumental Break —

Baby, you can take this pain away
Oh, I’m missing you every day
These bloodshot eyes
With hints of tears
In them captured what we’ve built through the years

Without you…
The void, it gets bigger
The light, it gets dimmer
The darkness gets thicker
And damn it, won’t you just come home?

I am the rain on my own parade
Oh, I’m missing you every day
Oh, I’m missing you every day
Oh, I’m missing you every day

43. Disney Trip – Days Six, Seven and Eight

As mentioned previously, we decided to skip the weekend and return to Disney on Monday and Tuesday instead of fighting with the weekend crowds. We finished off our tour of Disney with a visit to the Magic Kingdom, exploring one-half of the park each day since it was so massive.

The beauty of Magic Kingdom is breathtaking. Cinderella’s Castle is the unmistakable highlight and centerpiece of the entire park. Everything revolves around it, including the nightly fireworks spectacular which is set to music throughout the park.

It rained for most of the afternoon on Monday, sometimes coming down hard enough for rides to close and forcing us to take cover under shelter. We made the best of it though, and eventually decided to brave the elements and do as much as possible.

Brooke and I making faces and doing impressions during a massive rain storm that forced us to take cover at Magic Kingdom!

Space Mountain was probably the most terrifying ride of my life, but fun. Splash Mountain was also quite scary, but again, fun!

We took in some shows and ate a lot of food, as expected. The weather on Tuesday was much better than the previous day – sunny and hot enough for me to get quite a sunburn on my shoulders in the areas around my shirt collar where I wasn’t smart enough to apply sunscreen.

The final day wrapped things up for us. Jessica and Brooke took off to the airport and I hit the interstate for the 3.5 hour drive back to Valdosta. I missed Josie, my cat, a ton. She did very well on her own and surprisingly didn’t cause much destruction around the apartment while I was away. I took her yesterday to get her annual rabies vaccination and to have a wellness check-up performed. She scored a perfect health grade and the veterinarian had no concerns about her whatsoever. Next month it’ll be time to take her in for a declawing of her front claws and a spaying. It’s that time, unfortunately.

All-in-all, I had a great time bonding with Jessica’s daughter, Brooke. I threatened to kidnap her a few times. But in all seriousness, I had a blast and I would certainly do Disney again with the right person or people.

42. Disney Trip – Day Five

Sunday the 19th was a fairly quite day for me. Jessica and Brooke went off to Discovery Cove for the entire day and had a great time, although it was really hot and they came back sunburned. I, on the other hand, went shopping and picked up some great new fragrances from Neiman Marcus and Bloomingdale’s. I’ll have to write a post sometime soon explaining my obsession with cologne and perfume.

I first tried to go to Orlando Premium Outlets. It’s a place I’ve driven by frequently on I-4 but never had time to stop in. Unfortunately, after about 45 minutes of driving in circles in the parking lot, I realized that I was never going to be able to find an open parking space. I gave up and went to the Mall at Millenia instead.

The Mall at Millenia is very nice and upscale. It’s probably seeing an increase in shoppers since Saks and Nordstrom both left the Florida Mall last year. I met with representatives from Tom Ford, Bond No. 9, Jo Malone, Thierry Mugler, and Chanel, and ended up with a ton of great samples to try out. I also picked up a Tom Ford gift set which contained six Private Blend fragrances as well as a full size bottle of Grapefruit from the Jo Malone counter. I had budgeted about $700 for the shopping trip and came in at around $450, so I consider that a huge success on my part!

The rest of the day was relaxed. I picked up Jess and Brooke around 4:00 PM and we were all pretty lazy that evening. I ended up having Wendy’s for dinner and then we went swimming before it was time to go to bed for a long day at Magic Kingdom on Monday.

41. Disney Trip – Day Four

While the name of this series of posts is “Disney Trip,” we actually decided to skip Disney for the weekend to avoid the larger crowds and then return on Monday. Saturday the 18th brought us to Sea World instead.

I know about all of the controversy surrounding Sea World as of late and I do agree with many of the critics. However, this trip was solely about making a child happy, and to me, that takes precedence over everything that I have read and heard about the theme park.

Sea World is very impressive. It’s laid out nicely, it’s clean, and the weather was hot and beautiful. My favorite attraction was probably the Pets Ahoy show. It featured cats, dogs, rodents, birds, and other creatures literally performing an entire stage show while doing tricks and stunts. It was quite the show to take in! It amazed me how some of those animals were trained so well and performed the tasks so flawlessly.

There was a neat underground aquarium which featured an array of different marine species. Brooke really enjoyed that part of it, and I did too. We were able to spend some time at a Sting Ray touching area and watch as some baby dolphins swam around in their public holding pool.

After we made the rounds and it was almost time to leave, we stopped into a gift shop and Brooke picked out a charm bracelet she really liked. For the rest of the trip, she was able to collect several really cool charms to add to her new bracelet, each one representing some of the parks and the attractions she was able to visit. I hope she is able to enjoy it for many years to come and remember the good experiences she had.

40. Disney Trip – Day Three

Day three of our Disney trip was right up there as one of my favorites. I thought it was really awesome to be able to explore Disney’s Animal Kingdom.

Brooke, my friend’s daughter, was given a Wilderness Explorer’s booklet in which she had to try to collect as many “badges” (stickers) as possible throughout the park. Each badge is earned by completing either a series of challenges, listening to lectures, or answering questions based on that subject. Some of the badges to be earned include animal identification, first aid for pets, world music, among several others. After you earn a certain number of badges, you are promoted in rank. I found it extremely educational and I had a blast watching her earn over 10 badges! It made me happy to see that she was enjoying the experience.

Of course there were rides and other attractions. There was also a neat dinosaur excavation pit where children could dig in the dirt to uncover bones and fossils. One other neat highlight was a show called, “It’s Tough to be a Bug!” It was a 3-D experience complete with spiders and other insects, and even a sudden little scare at the end which included the seat bottoms moving to simulate the feeling of bugs crawling down your pants. Weird but cool!

I hope to revisit Animal Kingdom again in the future. I really had a great time there.

39. Disney Trip – Day Two

Thursday, April 16th was the first “official” full day of our trip. We started the Disney rounds with a visit to Hollywood Studios.

Hollywood Studios is an interesting park, but seemed to be lacking rides for younger kids, which was the whole point of us going in the first place. We did go into some neat attractions and ride on a few rides, but mostly the day was all about exploring and wandering. I think we did a good job of choosing Hollywood Studios as our first park to visit because, well, it only got more exciting after that!

We caught a Disney Junior live stage show, ate a lot of food, and soaked up a lot of sun.

The best part of the day for me was the Aerosmith Rock ‘n’ Roller Coaster! I had never been on a roller coaster that goes upside down…until then! I really loved it too. Aerosmith is, of course, my favorite band.

I was going to do the Tower of Terror, but unfortunately our Fast Passes were all screwed up and the wait time was ridiculously long. Maybe next time.