35. Pet Peeve

Texting me something vague and then expecting me to ask follow-up questions to find out the rest. If it’s important enough for you to text me about it in the first place, then tell me everything I need to know in the first text or don’t tell me at all. I rarely ask follow-up questions.

And if your response to that is, “I guess you just don’t care about me then,” you can probably just go ahead and assume that my answer will be exactly that, because you’re right – I don’t really care enough to ask for more details. Sorry…

…not.

34. Here to Stay | An Original Lyric

Here to Stay

Original – May 26, 2013

Sittin’ by the pool, wonderin’ what you’ve been up to
Surrounded by some pretty girls, not one of them you
My feet are on the ground, my eyes are to the sky
And I just can’t seem to get you off my mind

I can’t get you outta my head
You’re here to stay, and every “I love you” said
Nothing’s gonna make them go away
Nothing’s gonna make them go away
So, I just want you to know, wherever I go
You’re still here to stay, you’re here to stay

I find myself lost, thinking of the days gone by
There’s not a girl who can help me, but they sure try
My feet are on the ground, my eyes are to the sky
And I just can’t seem to get you off my mind

I can’t get you outta my head
You’re here to stay, and every “I love you” said
Nothing’s gonna make them go away
Nothing’s gonna make them go away
So, I just want you to know, wherever I go
You’re still here to stay, you’re here to stay

Too afraid to watch my favorite shows
Can’t even listen to the radio
‘Cause every time it’s always the same
I never know if I’ll hear your name

–Instrumental Break–

I can’t get you outta my head
You’re here to stay, and every “I love you” said
Nothing’s gonna make them go away
Nothing’s gonna make them go away
So, I just want you to know, wherever I go
You’re still here to stay, you’re here to stay

I can’t get you outta my head
You’re here to stay, and every “I love you” said
Nothing’s gonna make them go away
Nothing’s gonna make them go away
So, I just want you to know, wherever I go
You’re still here to stay, you’re here to stay

33. Trey Songz – Heart Attack

We share something so common
Still so rare, and I’m in awe
Never been here before
So high, we’re still climbing
Even here inside these walls
Breaking each others hearts
And we don’t care ’cause we’re so

In too deep, can’t think about giving it up
But I never knew love would feel like a heart attack
It’s killing me, swear I never cried so much
‘Cause I never knew love would hurt this fuckin’ bad
The worst pain that I ever had

Oh wo-oh, never never never knew love (Oh wo-oh)
Would hurt this fuckin’ bad
The worst pain that I ever had

All the times when I know I should be smiling
Seem to be the time that I frown the most
Can’t believe that we’re still survivin’
Cause I’m slowly breaking down
Even when I hold you close
And if I lose you
I’m afraid I would lose who
Who I gave my love to
That’s the reason I stay around
Even though I fell way

In too deep, can’t think about giving it up
But I never knew love would feel like a heart attack
It’s killing me, swear I never cried so much
‘Cause I never knew love would hurt this fuckin’ bad
The worst pain that I ever had

Oh wo-oh, never never never knew love (Oh wo-oh)
Would hurt this fuckin’ bad
The worst pain that I ever had

And it hurts,
Cause I wanna leave, and you wanna leave
But the love keeps us together

And if I lose you
I’m afraid I would lose who
Who I gave my love to
That’s the reason I stay around
Even though I fell way

In too deep, can’t think about giving it up
But I never knew love would feel like a heart attack
It’s killing me, swear I never cried so much
Cause I never knew love would hurt this fuckin’ bad
The worst pain that I ever had

Oh wo-oh, never never never knew love (Oh wo-oh)
Would hurt this fuckin’ bad
The worst pain that I ever had

32. Happy Easter & Review of ‘Purgatory Key’ by Darrell James

16249275When I was on my way home from my deployment last July, I had a few hours to kill in Baltimore while waiting for my connection to Atlanta and then on to Valdosta. I ended up browsing a small bookstore and picked up Purgatory Key by Darrell James. The first half of this book was very well written, but around page 220 it became almost like the author wanted to hurry up the pace at the expense of the details. The next two dozen or so pages were lacking, but then towards the climax the details started appearing again, ending the book on a good note. A few annoying typos were present, however, such as ‘shorts’ instead of ‘shots’, among some others towards the ending, which confirms my point about some parts being rushed and careless. Overall, it was a decent read to kill some time. From what I understand, it’s the third book in a series that follows the same main character, but I don’t believe I’ll be reading those anytime soon.

I had started the book in the airport, but since it never really hooked me, I dragged it out, reading only a chapter here and a chapter there. It had always annoyed me that I hadn’t finished it yet, so today I buckled down and read the last 100 or so pages while relaxing poolside on this beautiful Easter day.

31. Alone on a Saturday Night | BlackBoxTV

A couple of years ago a coworker of mine had me watch a video on YouTube. The video, in this case a prank, was pretty interesting and definitely funny, so I looked up the channel on my own when I got home that night and discovered BlackBoxTV. I’m so glad I did!

BlackBoxTV is a mixture of pranks and short films mostly of the Horror and Suspense genres. They usually feature a surprise or “twist” at the end, but they’re really genius. Here’s my favorite so far:

As a writer of these specific genres and someone who loves short stories and films, the channel really struck a chord with me and I’ve been a subscriber ever since.

Over the last three months, the creator of BlackBoxTV, Tony Valenzuela, has been streaming a live YouTube program for a couple of hours each Saturday night. The program is called ‘Alone on a Saturday Night’ and is his way of connecting with his fans. The live streams have become addictive, if I say so myself. It’s fun to kick back and just enjoy chatting and hearing what other fans have to talk about, as well as see some exclusive sneak peeks of upcoming film projects Tony is working on.

This has basically become my Saturday night ritual. I usually listen to 3-4 hours of music in the evening, and then watch the live stream until about 1:00 AM. Lately, it just seems more and more like my kind of night. I’ve met a couple of really cool new friends from participating, so as long as they’re being offered, I’ll keep watching. It’s a good way to recover from a long work week and just have a good time during the weekend without any stress or worries.

30. Fitness Test

The Air Force fitness test (PT test) has four main components. First, there is the abdominal measurement. Basically, for males under 30 years of age, a waist less than 35 inches is considered the healthiest and will earn you the most number of points on your test. For every half-inch above 35, you lose points and must make them up on the remaining components.

Which brings us to push-ups. Push-ups have never been an issue for me, and I have never failed the push-ups portion of my fitness test. For my age group, the minimum is 33 in one minute or less. Not a big deal.

Sit-ups are a different story. Until last year, I had never failed the sit-ups portion of my test. Unfortunately, just before I deployed, I missed my minimum requirement of 42 in one minute or less by four, achieving 38. You wouldn’t typically think of 38 sit-ups as being a negative thing, but the Air Force requires that you meet not only the overall minimum score for all components combined (75 out of 100), but you must also pass all individual components by meeting their respective minimums. In other words, even if you achieve an 85 out of 100 on the overall test, but fail sit-ups, you still fail the entire test. Fair? The jury is still out on that one. Needless to say, since I failed last year, it wasn’t the best of times for me.

This year, though, seems to be a different story. I had another fitness test today, and just like years past, I still get nervous, even if I know I will be fine. It’s just something that has always bothered me and I’m not sure why. After completing my abdominal measurement, I looked at the scoring charts and realized I needed 41 push-ups and 50 sit-ups in order to pass. I would have calculated in the 1.5 mile run, but I was exempt from completing it today due to a recurring shoulder injury that seems to be iffy at the moment. Anyway, my nerves started acting up again after seeing this, because I’ve never had to achieve such high numbers in these components before. I usually hold back on my push-ups and sit-ups to save energy for the run, which is always the last component, but this time I had no excuse and no reason to hold back – I had to go for it if I wanted to pass.

I eventually made it to the testing area. After waiting for a good 15 minutes, the instructors showed up and the test began. We did push-ups first, and I was in the third group, so I had a while to wait. When it was my turn, I really didn’t know what to expect. I didn’t know my own confidence level, and I didn’t know if I felt good enough to knock out 41 push-ups. You see, that’s the thing – you can train every single day, but sometimes test day is just awkward, and that training hasn’t mattered at all. Still though, I had to try my hardest. I got into position, the instructor began the timer, and that was it…no turning back. I push out about 35 at first, then took a short rest. I kept going and sure enough, I passed 41 on my second wind. I had a good 30 seconds remaining, so I was able to get a few more in and finish up with 49 total. What? 49?! Yes! Go me. That took a huge weight off my shoulders. But I still had to do sit-ups.

I waited around some more, because again I was in the third group to complete mine. When it came time to do them, I realized that I no longer had to do 50, since I had scored some extra points on my push-ups by doing 49 instead of 41. I was going to aim now for 45 instead, which at the time seemed more realistic.

Down on the floor I went, waiting for the timer to start. And then it started. I seemed to feel good – better than I had even training for the test. I did about 40 in my first round, rested for a few seconds, and then kept going until I hit 58. Wait, what? 58? Again…yes! How did I manage that? Who knows, but damn I felt amazing after! I knew I had passed with flying colors. But, the best part was that I scored a full 10 out of 10 points for that component by achieving my maximum of at least 57 for my age group. Unbelievable. It’s the first time in my life I have accomplished that, and it feels good.

My next fitness test will be in September, and the minimum requirements will be different since I’ll then be in the 30-39 age group. Bring it on.

29. Grouplove – Ways to Go

I didn’t ask for this
You give me heart attack
I didn’t want to care
And then I saw you there
Been working like a dog
I turned all my dreams off
I didn’t know my name, I didn’t know my name

I got a little bit longer, I got a ways to go
I got a little bit longer, I got a ways to go
I got a little bit longer, I got a ways to go
Whoa oh oh (I got a ways to go)

Even when I can’t see my rearview
Even if I call just to hear you
Even when I sleep all day (Even when I sleep all day)
Even if I work it like I’m times two
Living in the back of the bunk just like we do
Even when I dream all day

Don’t wanna sleep tonight
You’ve got me feeling right
I didn’t know my name, I didn’t know my name

I got a little bit longer, I got a ways to go
I got a little bit longer, I got a ways to go
I got a little bit longer, I got a ways to go
Whoa oh oh (I got a ways to go)

Even when I can’t see my rearview
Even if I call just to hear you
Even when I sleep all day (Even when I sleep all day)
Even if I work it like I’m times two
Living in the back of the bunk just like we do
Even when I dream all day
Even when I dream all day

Oh I got a little bit longer, I got a ways to go oh oh
Whoa oh oh

Even if I smoke in the back room
Even if I go right to meet you
Even when I sleep all day, even when I sleep all day
Even if I work it like I’m times two
Waiting for the day just to end so I see you
Even when I dream all day, even when I dream all day

28. You’re not cute if you try too hard to be cute

I have a very interesting female friend. By ‘interesting’, I mean scatterbrained.

I don’t know how most other guys like their women, but I prefer mine to be on the naturally attractive side when it comes to their personality. Unfortunately, this female friend of mine tends to try too hard to be like me, and it’s obvious. When I talk a certain way, she talks that way. When I do something, she does it too. When I get into a specific mood, she also does. Basically, she thinks that the way to capture my attention and make me think positively of her is to behave and talk like me, and all of the sudden start being interested in the things that I’m interested in.

To me, that’s trying too hard. She in fact makes herself much less attractive by trying too hard to impress me. Not to mention, another way she tries to make me more attracted to her is by trying to be sexy. If she were to just be herself, that would work much better, because when it comes to physical attraction, there is nothing worse than a girl who is already attractive trying to be more attractive and then having it backfire because she’s too ditsy to make it work. Huge turn off.

Moral of the story – if you’ve got it, you’ve got it. If you don’t have it, just don’t even try to get it and spare us guys the awkwardness of trying to tell you that you don’t have it.

27. In the Valley Below – Peaches

I’ve been working on my knees baby it’s alright
Everybody got disease maybe it’s alright
You can steal from me baby that’s just fine
You can say its free baby that’s alright

Working on a feeling
Breaking down the ceiling
Digging up a deep end
Freezing on the beaches
Reaching for the sweetest, sweetest peaches

Baby, oh yeah

We won’t live too long
So let’s love for one song
The lion won’t lay down
When the holy man’s in town

You’ve been drinking all week baby that’s alright
You’ve been stepping on me baby it’s alright
You’ve been tearing me apart in the dead of night
I’ll be raising my hands when the lighting strikes

Chorus x2

Working on a feeling
Breaking down the ceiling
Digging up a deep end
Freezing on the beaches
Reaching for the sweetest, sweetest peaches

26. The American Flag

There’s a whole lot of debate lately about the American Flag and what people choose/choose not to do with it in schools, businesses, and on private property. I think that before anyone debates anything about the flag itself, we first need to get back to basics and refresh ourselves on what the flag means to us and our country again.

Without meaning, it’s just piece of fabric with colors on it. And if people still truly took as much pride in their country as they say they do, there would be no need for debate about the flag, because everyone would instead be coming up with reasons to fly it more rather than take it down and hide it away forever.